Poetical Blogging "River Of Hope"

Up the streams of dreams I float

Passion powers the love in my boat

The current takes me where hope awaits

Reflections in the water of things that are great

Refreshing my mind and quenching my soul

The breeze tells me things my eyes don't behold

Secrets of living and of growing old

How to live right but to still be bold

Taking my time at the pace of the water

You can't rain on my parade so don't even bother

The power of love and the power of pain

Both can move you but they're not the same

Waste no thoughts on negative perspective

Row towards tides with positive directives

Keep your mind pristine and your heart in the light

move towards peace and fight the good fight

So Thankful

Ok....so I know I have been m.i.a for awhile now. Well, only from here. Ha! You've still seem me around here and there on twitter I imagine. I didn't realize that people REALLY enjoyed reading this. I have always appreciated the kindness that the people of twitter show me, especially when complimenting me on my blog. I love writing but I cannot lie....i'm not crazy about READING blogs. Not exactly sure why. For precisely that reason I don't expect people to read my blog. I started doing it for me and have realized that there are those who TRULY enjoy reading. So.....this post is for you all. I'm SO thankful. I'm thankful for so many things nowadays. Thankful for family, friends, and life in general. It's a beautiful thing. Life truly is a gift. Just like a quote i've read, it owes us nothing. We owe to life and the creator to be our best. Each and every one of us is a miracle. We are a unique and creative living organism which can intelligently (or not so) make decisions based on things we do or do not believe. We have the ability to make choices that affect our well being. Hmmmmm.....choices. Isn't that a perplexing thing? Choices come down to thinking, another gift that we have been given. Life is full of gifts. It is a gift just to wake up everyday. You can give someone many gifts daily. Smile at them. Hold the door for them. Compliment them. Just make someone feel good. I love doing it. It makes me feel good to do it. Man, when I can bring a smile to someone's face it's like I light up inside. It's a great thing. I love it. This world is lacking a serious amount of kindness. Seems like today people are all for self. It's a shame because we are not living alone in this world. Life is about togetherness. It's about willpower. It's about happiness. I highly doubt life was given to us to be miserable. We have to find ways to make ourselves and others happy. Life is filled with obstacles to overcome. Not just our lives but those who walked the earth before us. Each of us has a different set of obstacles to overcome. But wouldn't it be nice if everyone related and connected the dots and shared our obstacles? I bet we'd be surprised how much easier overcoming each of our obstacles would be. I'm making a conscious effort to take into account other people's problems and the problems of the world in general. Before I die I wanna change the world for the better and with everyone's help i'm confident that that is as possible as possible can be. Life....i'm so thankful. Love y'all.

Just a hello

This is just a post to say thanks to everyone that has subscribed to my blog. I've been a bit busy and haven't been blogging daily. There will be times when I blog everyday for 2 weeks in a row and then maybe not one for days. It will happen so i'm giving some pre-emptive apologies. LOL! So I just made a beat and I like it. Nothing really new in my world. Just a bit crazy how all these earthquakes are happening. I fear it will only get worse. That's a whole other blog post though. I'm actually eating right now so my thoughts are on this food sitting in front of me. LOL! Just wanted to drop a line or two to say i'm still here and that I will get back on my blog rind. Love y'all.

Life Is Too Short

A grandmother figure to me died yesterday after a long battle with cancer. When things like that happen it puts everything into perspective again. Sometimes the everyday grind of life makes you forget how important enjoying every moment of life, even the bad ones is. We go through life just trying to be happy and to get by. In the moment of living it seems like life is a long process when, in fact, it's not that long at all. It's rare that a person gets to accomplish everything in life that they hoped for. People come in and out of our lives. Things don't always seem fair. I'm realizing now that life owes us nothing. Life is a gift. We owe everything to life. We have to be our best and give our best to people everyday or we will regret it in the end. Let the people you care about fully understand how much you care. Never waste an opportunity to shine your light around the world. Sometimes we forget about the people who care about us. I'm guilty of it. We owe those who care about us something. We owe them at least a word of gratitude if nothing else. We need to start living for people other than ourselves. I mean, we have to look out for ourselves but keep other peoples feelings close at heart. We only live once so why not make as many people smile as we can. I don't know about you but there is nothing I enjoy more than making someone smile. It makes me feel good. Even if it is just holding a door for someone or giving a random stranger a compliment. That should be what life is about. Let's all do our part to make others happy. One smile at a time we can change the world. Life is too short to live miserable and unhappy. I understand we can't always be full of joy but we don't have to share our unhappiness with everyone else. Let's start sharing joy and laughter more often. After all, life is too short to not to. Love y'all.

I'm A Happy Man

I'm a happy man. A certain someone revealed their true colors to me. It was what I suspected all along but without proof what can you say? I still got love for this person just not like I had. It's a sad thing because I care about them. It makes me happy though because it has made it easier for me to get over. Thank god. I mean, I wasn't even acting like myself it had me so messed up. That's just silly. I have a feeling that it will continue to happen with them. I don't mean to sound like i'm dissing this person i'm just telling what I feel in my heart. That person knows that i didn't want it to be this way. I said some really hateful things on the phone to them but I was angry. You should never speak from anger. Wait until you cool off. My point is though, I actually meant one or two of those things. I was getting no respect and getting ridiculed but it's all good because that showed me how they really felt. They were conspiring on me with someone else even. So much for loving me and being a friend first. Like i said though, I still care about them even though I was being treated so wrongfully. That's just me though. I don't hold grudges and I accept apologies unlike some childish people. Today has been a great day. I feel like myself again and my heart no longer hurts. I've moved on to greener pastures and more trustworthy people. I still consider this person a friend and would still do anything for them. I would still put my own problems on the back burner for them. I feel good about that too. I believe in Karma and if you continue to lie and treat people badly even though you may be doing great in life now, things will eventually come crashing down. That's just the way things work. It's crazy how I still can accept bending over backwards for people even knowing they wouldn't do the same for me. I just want what goes around to come around. Just remember that please. Remember the golden rule. But do not only do onto others as they would do to you, do onto others better than they do you. It's 2010...time to be better and time to do better. just trying to do my part to make the world a better place. I love y'all.

My Apologies

I'm sorry for being absent on sharing my feelings with you. I haven't felt very inspired as of late. Some of you may have noticed a few of my posts that I was confessing my affection for a certain lady. Well, i'm here to report that those feelings are gone. As much as i do care about that person, I felt like things weren't going the way they should. When I give someone my heart and complete honesty I expect the same. My feelings weren't being reciprocated. The #1 thing to me in a relationship is telling the truth NO MATTER WHAT. Even if you think it's gonna hurt the person you have to keep it real. In the short time we were together she lied to me at least twice that I know of. I really really loved this girl so of course i'm hurt. It hurts bad. I cared about her so much I compromised with my own beliefs thinking that maybe she wouldn't do it again. I always say that if you lie to me even once it's over. I actually let it slide with her at first because I thought the world of her. I really don't know what I was thinking. As I sit here and write now I am sad. This shit ain't right. I remember now why I was so content with being single. I hate this feeling of love controlling you. It will. It will make you feel weird. Sometimes really great and sometimes really bad. I'm destined to be a single man and to just have "relations" with women, not relationships. In a couple days I'll be completely over it but right now sucks, i'm not gonna lie. Once again i'm sorry for missing my posts the past few days. I'll try to get on the ball again. Love y'all

Food For Thought

We live in a crazy world. I mean it. CRAZY! People are crazy, things that happen are crazy, and times are crazy. I'm not saying i'm the only sane one, but boy sometimes it seems that way. Sometimes when someone tells me something I imagine them thinking I must be stupid. Is that it or are they just not around people that over-analyze things? Are they used to someone just accepting what they say? Not me you bastard! You tell me something it's like you just served me up a plate of thought. I'm gonna inspect the food, enjoy the food slowly, and then i'm gonna run some hot water and think. I know, you're thinking "and this guy says he might be the only sane one!" You might be right. I doubt it though. I don't really have a point. I'm just sayin'....quit dumbin' shit down. Things need a certain amount of complexity to them. I enjoy a good mystery. Only if it is truly able to be figured out though. I don't wanna be puttin' my mind to something and never get that feelin' of completion that comes from understanding it. Believe me. When you tell me something i'm not just looking at you to be courteous. I'm looking deep into your eyes and reading your intentions. I'm looking through your eyes, watching your mannerisms. I can tell a story teller (liar) from jump street. Just by looking into your eyes I can tell if you're being real with me. Sometimes when someone is looking at me and telling me something when i'm analyzing i'm actually saying in my head, "you are a crazy bastard to think i'm believing this right now." I'm also sometimes thinking if that person is doing the same thing I am. It doesn't really matter, but just remember next time you look at me and tell me something that i'm just not believing you for no reason. I'm not gullible or stupid and you can take that to the bank. Love y'all.