I'm A Lucky Man

Wow! Life is really starting to be very kind to me. Is this the Karma that people talk about? Are the things that i've always wanted starting to happen for me as a way of saying thank you? Well it's definitely something. I am so amazed by a girl I have recently met. You know when in your heart you feel something is so right? When even your gut says "this is it?" Well it's happening to me. I'm also not thinking about my family as much. Yes, that is a good thing because my family is a source of negative energy. Life is finally starting to balance out. Don't get me wrong. There is still lots wrong with the world I hope will change. I actually hope to do my part to contribute and i will. It's just that i've begun to realize that I can't dwell on things that are out of my control. I can still show concern but when they start to affect my mood i need to let them go. We are so snowed in right now. It's pretty crazy. I wanted a major snowstorm and we got it. Now i'm ready for spring. I've learned one thing about blogging. It can be difficult to write an entry everyday if you do it like I do. I don't pre-write or pre-think any of it. I just sit down and pour out what i'm feeling at THAT moment. At the moment i'm watching the Cleveland cavaliers game so I just wanna type play by play commentary but i'll spare you the boredom. Ha! Besides, nobody wants to hear about a basketball game. Well, except Cavs fans and basketball fans. This isn't called Chad's sports blog though. Otherwise I would have written an entry on how the Saints are superbowl champs and how the city of New Orleans really needed that. I am really happy the Saints pulled that out. Hurricane Katrina caused major havoc there and the recovery has still not fully happened. Ok, so enough sports. I have a certain someone on my mind because it is 20 minutes until she meets with the surgeon. I hope they give her answers and get her healthy. She deserves that. I hope everything turns out ok. I love her and I need to know everything is ok. It's Tuesday and the trash goes out in the morning so I really need to get out there and drag the can through the snow and get it to the curb. Brrrrrrrrr. LOL! I hope everyone had and is having a great day filled with many blessings. Please remember to be good to people. We all deserve that. Once again, I love y'all.

Random As It Gets

I titled this entry that because that is exactly what this is gonna be. I have no subject in mind bothering me at the moment or inspiring at the moment. Nothing really bad nothing really good. Ha! I'm gonna probably switch subjects, change topics, and mix points so this might not make much sense. This is the reason I didn't write yesterday's post yesterday. I wrote it early today. Just kinda every thought in the world racing around my brain. I just ate so i'm feeling a little better. I drank a little but now i wanna eat up the whole house. Wow, back from over an hour break. Sorry, I took a intermission from writing this. Got sidetracked. I don't remember where i was and don't wanna go back and read to see what to start writing about again. I know right??!! What a lazy bastard! Ha! Guess all I wanna say is i love y'all. PEACE

Apology Post

I'm sorry. I missed my post yesterday. No excuse for that. I bullshitted around. I was gonna write it when I got home but I was drunk when I did. This is just an apology and a make-up for not writing yesterday. I really appreciate those who have subscribed. It inspires me that you are interested in how I feel and how i think. Thank you all. We are supposed to get another inch of snow tonight and then another 6-10 tomorrow. I thought we were done with snow for at least a week or so! I'm pretty tired right now but for some reason i'm feeling like heading out again tonight. Have no idea why either. I'm also getting pretty tired of Ohio. I get bored with things too easily. That's a trait of being a Gemini but it's also got something to do with my childhood. I moved around so much and never really settled in anywhere so it's kinda what i'm used to. It seems i'm that way with everything not just my living arrangements. I often get so inspired to start something and will get so close to finishing and then just stop. A sudden loss of interest plagues me often. I have to find a way to change that. It's a must. Like i said, I didn't want to write a very long post, just one to make up for what I didn't write yesterday. I will also write my official "todays" post later. I promise. Love y'all.

Randomness

I figured for todays entry I would just tell you what i've done so far today. I'm gonna stay away from dropping knowledge or philosophical writing for this post. Don't worry...i'll get back to it tomorrow. I've had a decent day. I didn't get much sleep last night because I was up talking to my special someone which makes it all ok. I woke up today feeling pretty good about things and life itself. I was pretty down on myself last night about family and such. Talking with my girl she helped me realize better things lie ahead. I'm so thankful for her. I shoveled a ton of snow today and my body is a bit sore. My shoulder also hurts. Ouch! I'll be fine though. The rest of my day will be spent on R&R. My dad wanted to know if i would come and dig him out also. I obliged of course because i'm a good guy but I don't like his girlfriend. She is a bitch and a liar and no good for him. I'm not too happy with my pops right now either. When I walked in his door for some reason i was overcome with negative feelings so I said "I don't even know why i'm doing this for you because you're an asshole." He looked puzzled and chuckled it off. I didn't find it that funny. I was serious. I looked at his lazy bitch of a girlfriend right in her eyes and told her "and I don't even like you." I exited out the door to go shovel. Well, my little cousin was over there and came outside after me and told me that she heard Tammy (dad's girlfriend) tell my dad that I said that to him. I told HIM he was an asshole. I looked HER right in her eyes and told her I didn't even like her. She knew I was talking to her. That pisses me off. After I shoveled I didn't even go back in the house, I just left. So I got home a bit ago and started some dinner because i'm starved. I didn't eat breakfast for some stupid reason. I only tossed back a glass of orange juice before leaving which kind of put my stomach on tilt. We got hit pretty hard with snow and we will be getting more in a couple days. Oh boy. I can't lie, i like it though. The smell of dinner is now circulating the house and i can't wait to eat. So that brings me to now. Here I sit typing my post for today about random things. As always, I hope you enjoy and remember, I love y'all.

Poetical Blogging "Words"

These are not just words typed out be be seen

these are words meant to inspire or emphasize dreams

without words we'd be lost with no hopes of communication

just looks or hand gestures to simplify creation

we're blessed with these phrases to get across what we say

to express how we feel or describe our days

what a gift we've been given to read and write

to sit down with a book and turn on the light

let your eyes scan the scribe that tells a story of mine

read between the lines as it takes you through time

let your mind be at ease and your body relax

If you're longing for hope then let this be your relapse

you all are my friends if you're reading along

you're the beauty being sang in a wonderful song

you're the sparkle in the eye of a carefree child

and the sun that shines on the miracle mile

be the song of the bird who chirps when it's freed

be the change that you hope for

the change that we need

words can warm souls and can amplify life

be used to create bonds and say I do to a wife

words can reverse actions seemingly set in stone

if you feel like your lost words can show you the way home

as you read these words just remember one thing

remember the the happiness AND pain they can bring

use your words wisely for good and for joy

words are very powerful

words aren't no toy

Once again here's my love and my heart poured out

I hope you like my blog

It's what i'm all about ~ LOVE y'all

No Yes Men

Doesn't it suck to have people around you who only tell you what you want to hear?I don't know about y'all but I would rather be told the truth. To quote myself...."always welcome pain if it means you are being told the truth." I thought up that quote one day when I realized that the truth does hurt sometimes but it's better that way. You'll never really know how you are seen by other people if you surround yourself with "yes men". In a world full of liars and fakes I find the truth refreshing. It's like jumping into a pool of ice water on a one hundred degree day. It's important to me to be told the truth. As a matter of fact, it is THE MOST important thing to me. I'm tired of "yes men". Give it to me raw and unfiltered. That's how someone who really cares about you does it. I don't wanna hear i'm doing everything right unless I am. It's important that you see yourself in a good light but that isn't always the way things are. You need another perspective and not just somebody shaking their head and telling you yeah. My point is...surround yourself with people who really care about you. When someone tells you something true and it hurts you it means they like you and they care about your well-being. They want you to do better and to be a better person. Believe it or not your critics care. You just have to be able to distinguish between a hater and a critic. So once again, I love y'all and please remember....NO YES MEN.

Life Moves Fast

Ok....sorry for the late entry. You know what they say though. Better late than never. So I just wanna express my feelings on life and how it flies by faster the older you get. When I was a young teenager I wanted so bad to be older and it took forever to happen it seemed like. But when I hit 18, good lord, I wish I could slow it down. Time truly does fly! I have to tell myself to really enjoy things as they happen. You know, take it all in. We only live once so we might as well do it big and enjoy what we have been blessed with. Regardless of your circumstances we must learn that millions have it worse than you. Enjoy what you have and make good memories because in the end that's all were left with. I'll be 30 in June and it seems like just last week I was anxious to turn 21 to go have my first drink. We get in such a rush to live sometimes we forget to enjoy what's happening all around us. Life does that to you. But life is a gift that keeps on giving so enjoy what it throws your way. Pay attention to the little things that happen to you. Enjoy the good people in your life because before you know it you and they will be gone. Do the things you enjoy but also make things more enjoyable for others. Make connections. Never stop dreaming. Be yourself. Take a look around once in awhile and realize that we are all blessed. Take a deep breath...feel that?? It's your heart beating and it could stop any second!!! Enjoy it now! Stop complaining. You are blessed just to be alive! Time is ticking! Love y'all.